Ruptured Achilles

Friday was a typical day for me. I went into the church office in the morning–studied, met with a staff person, had a counseling session, answered emails and phone calls, and researched curriculum for a church campaign in the spring. I came home early to get ready for taekwondo graduations that evening.

I have been taking taekwondo off and on for seven years. I reached the level of second degree black belt but have never been sure that my skill matched my rank. My wife, Liz, and four boys also take taekwondo. Their commitment and skill level surpasses my own. My wife and three older boys have all earned state champ rankings in forms and/or sparring. I am happy to simply pass a mid-term test (aka graduation), held every two months.

The adult graduation was scheduled for 7:30pm. But since we had a church business meeting at 7:30pm, we decided to graduate with my older boys’ class at 5:30pm. My wife and I and two others were the only adults in the class. Being at a graduation with a lot of younger kids was a little awkward for me but since I knew most of the kids (and they knew me) it wasn’t too bad. I was somewhat thankful that there were not a lot of parents there since we did sort of stick out in the graduation.

Forms were the first part of the graduation. I sat in the back, squatted like a catcher waiting for my turn. We had done a quick warm-up before the graduation but squatting in the back helped me to continue to stretch and get ready for my form. My older boys went before my wife and me. They do their form very well and my oldest son especially has very smooth and high kicks. Several of the other kids also had very high kicks. As an adult, I knew I couldn’t kick that high but I certainly wanted to do my best in front of all the “young guns.”

My wife and I and the other adults went last. I felt good doing my form. I had corrected a lot of things over the past few weeks and it seemed like my form was finally coming together. I kicked as high as I could and can remember flexing my foot more during the round kicks since I noticed Nate and the other kids doing this during their forms. I ended my form right where I started—a good sign that I had done the form well.

Next was the weapons demonstration. Again the adults went last. I was a little shaky with the weapons form but got through it okay. There are a lot of rear stances in the weapons form which probably put some stress on my feet.

Finally we got ready for testing sparring. I put on all my equipment and prepared to spar. I was feeling good and had some energy. When it was my turn, I was paired with another young adult. We faced each other and bowed. When sparring began, I remember doing a kick or two and then waiting for my partner to do a few kicks. While he was kicking, I switched feet, putting my left foot in back. I was preparing to do a front jump kick, pushing off with my left foot and kicking in the air with my right. As I went to push off, I felt something hit my back heel. I thought someone sparring next to me had fallen, landing right on the back of my leg. However, when I turned around no one was there. For a split second, I remember thinking, “That’s weird. What just happened?” I can even remember making eye contact with my taekwondo instructor who was at the judges’ table right behind me. He seemed to have the same confused look I did, wondering why I had stopped to look around behind me.

Then, the pain hit. I crumpled to the mat and began holding my leg. I knew what had happened. My Achilles tendon had popped.

The diagnosis was clear in my mind because I could remember talking with two guys in our church who had popped their Achilles. Both of them had relayed to me the same information. “It felt like someone hit me in the back of the leg with a bat but when I turned around, no one was there.” Their words stuck in my mind because I can remember thinking, “Man, that must have hurt!” I certainly didn’t ever want something like that to happen to me. In that instant, lying on the mat in pain, I realized that it did.

The initial pain felt intense. My own mind, knowing what had happened, probably didn’t help the situation.

People rushed to me, not quite sure what was going on. After all, I had fallen to the mat in pain without seemingly doing anything. My wife and instructor helped me remove my gear while a pack of ice was soon applied to the back of my leg. The ice helped and the pain seemed to dissipate fairly quickly. My mind, however, kept reminding me of what happened. The thought of a snapped Achilles was enough to make me wince in pain.

I was dragged to the side of the mat where I was able to say a few words to my sons who were all visibly concerned for me. I told Jonah, my third son, to do well at his graduation. He was graduating in the class right after us, going for his black belt. It was a big night for him. I hated missing it but I knew I needed to go to the hospital. A friend from church, Dan, arrived at the taekwondo school at almost the exact time I fell. He had come to see Jonah graduate. Instead he was recruited to take me to the hospital. Two of the men in the school carried me to Dan’s car. And soon, Dan and I were headed to St. Peter’s Hospital.

Another hospital was much closer but, knowing of too many nightmare stories with that hospital, I decided to go to St. Peter’s. At the time, the pain was not too bad which made the longer trip seem bearable.

The emergency room at St. Peter’s was packed as usual. Dan got me a wheelchair and wheeled me in. Most of the occupants were parents with young children. My taekwondo uniform made a number of people take a second look at me as I was wheeled in.

The wait was not as long as I thought it would be. Within an hour, I was called in. A triage nurse took down the initial information of my injury and checked my vital signs. When he asked to rate my pain level on a scale of 1-10, I said a “1.” I was ginger with my foot and didn’t want anyone to touch it, but amazingly there was really no pain.

I was wheeled into an examination room. Again, my uniform brought looks, a few smiles, and lots of comments. When the emergency room doctor finally saw me, he did the Thompson test on me. I had no idea what the Thompson test was until then. Basically I lay on my stomach with my feet hanging off the end of the bed. The doctor squeezed both of my calves. Though I couldn’t see what was happening, Dan later told me. Squeezing my right calf caused my heel and foot to flex. Squeezing my left calf caused nothing. The Achilles tendon was gone and my left foot no longer had a connection to my calf muscle. The test was fairly conclusive. I was just thankful that it wasn’t painful.

About an hour later, an orthopedic resident came in to see me. He performed the same test and concluded that my Achilles was completely ruptured. He contacted an orthopedic doctor that he worked with, Dr. L., and said that I could be seen on Monday and probably have surgery on Tuesday. Though an Achilles rupture could be treated non-surgically, surgery was advised since the chance of re-rupture is less likely. I agreed.

The resident made a splint for my leg and wrapped it in cotton cloth and several ace bandages. Within a short time he was gone. X-rays were taken to confirm the rupture and I was given a CD to take to the orthopedic doctor. After about four hours in the emergency room I was discharged.

I got back home a little after 11:00pm. Liz and the boys, as well as two of our friends, were waiting to see me. I used crutches to get into the house and onto the couch. Jonah relayed to me all the information about his graduation and showed me his new black belt. I watched the video and congratulated him. About an hour later, I was asleep on the couch.

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Colossians 2:13-15

And even though you were dead in your transgressions and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, he nevertheless made you alive with him, having forgiven all your transgressions. He has destroyed what was against us, a certificate of indebtedness expressed in decrees opposed to us. He has taken it away by nailing it to the cross. Disarming the rulers and authorities, he has made a public disgrace of them, triumphing over them by the cross.

There is a lot to try to process in these three verses! Basically Paul is elaborating on the simple truth that he made in 2:8…You are complete in Him.

The Colossians were new believers who were starting to get hit with lots of different “Christian” philosophies. Judaistic Christians were telling them that they needed more than just faith in Christ. They needed to be circumcised and follow the rituals of the law. Gnostic teachers were telling them that they needed to get more into “deeper” spirituality with ascetic practice and mystical interaction with angels. It was a convoluted spiritual mess…much like today. New Christians today (or people who take the label of Christian) are equally enticed by spiritual “secrets,” legalism, mysticism, New Age practices, second blessings, the prosperity gospel, or a host of other spiritual philosophies which claim to add more to your Christian life. The implication is that Christ is not enough. You need something else.

Paul makes it as clear as possible that, in Christ, we are complete.

We have complete forgiveness in Christ. We were dead in our sins and separated from God but, through faith in Christ, we have been made spiritually alive and have received complete forgiveness. He forgave us all our sins. Did you catch that? All of your sins are forgiven in Christ…past, present, and future. In fact, in case you missed it, Paul reiterates it with an illustration from the marketplace. In those days, if you owed money to someone, you signed a certificate of indebtedness, an IOU. It was a written statement, signed by your own hand, that clearly stated your debt. Paul says we all had a massive debt against God that we could not pay. And we were all without excuse. Our own handwriting, our own conscience, condemned us. And, as habitual lawbreakers, the debt kept accumulating (sort of like our national debt). But God took this certificate of indebtedness and nailed it to the cross. The cross marked our debt, “Paid in full.” The debt is gone. The slate is clean. Our sins are wiped away. We stand before God, in Christ, completely forgiven, completely righteous. There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). Feeling like a failure today? Feeling like you are constantly falling short in your Christian walk? Feeling defeated? Feeling guilty? In Christ, you can rejoice because you are free from the condemnation and requirements of the law. You are free….not to live for yourself (which only leads back to bondage) but for God.

We have complete freedom in Christ. Freedom from sin. Freedom from guilt. Freedom from condemnation. Freedom from the burden of never measuring up. Freedom from legalism. Freedom from fear. One of the biggest fears in the ancient world was from demonic forces. People would go through all sorts of rituals and prayers to appease the spirits and wear all sorts of charms to protect themselves from demonic assaults. Paul says, “Stop! Don’t you realize that Christ has not only triumphed over sin and death but also over Satan and his demonic forces?!” Christ disarmed them and then paraded them through the streets to show that they no longer have power over believers. We do not have to fear or focus on the demonic world. The formula in Christ is simple: Submit yourselves then to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7). Satan only has the power that we allow him to have in our lives.

Thank You, LORD, for complete forgiveness and freedom in Christ! May I live in that freedom today.

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Colossians 1:15-23

15He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. 16For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. 17He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. 18And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. 19For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, 20and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

21Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. 22But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free from accusation— 23if you continue in your faith, established and firm, not moved from the hope held out in the gospel. This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven, and of which I, Paul, have become a servant.

This passage is packed with theology! It is impossible to cover the depths of Paul’s words. But take a moment to reflect on the person of Jesus Christ. Who is He? Was He just a man who lived in Palestine 2000 years ago? A great teacher? A prophet? An enlightened guru? Or someone else? Paul paints this portrait of Jesus…

Jesus is the visible image of the invisible God. Jesus is the very manifestation of God in the flesh, able to be seen and touched.

Jesus is the firstborn over all creation. Jehovah’s Witnesses make a point of this phrase to say that Jesus was the first creature created. Of course, they miss the following verses which say Jesus created all things so He Himself could not have been created. Instead, the Jewish mindset would clearly understand that as “firstborn” Jesus has pre-eminence over all things. In Psalm 89:17, God says of the Messiah, “I will make him My firstborn, the highest of the kings of the earth.” God gave Jesus the title of “firstborn” as a title of honor and superiority. All things in creation are the inheritance and dominion of the Pre-Eminent Son of God.

Jesus is the creator of all things. All creatures, all powers, all angelic beings, all things were created by Jesus and for His glory. Whoa. The One who walked the roads of Palestine was the very creator of the earth on which He walked, the people in which He interacted with, and the cross on which He hung. Let that blow your mind for awhile.

Jesus is the sustainer of all things. All things are held together by Him. The atomic force that holds the atom together is only a small representation of His power. In Him, we live and move and have our very being.

Jesus is the head of the church. No man heads the church. Every pastor, bishop, preacher, priest, or elder ministers under the authority of Jesus Christ. Jesus is the Chief Shepherd and we are the under-shepherds. Thus there is no room for pride, domination, superiority, or selfish agendas in the church of Jesus Christ.

Jesus is the conqueror of death. No person on earth can stop death…no matter how much earthly power, influence, or wealth he/she has. This in itself should keep us humble and sober. Only Jesus has power over death. If you can find another Savior who has physically conquered death, then follow them. I will stick with Jesus Christ.

Jesus is the reconciler of mankind to God. Though Jesus has all power and supremacy, He did not come to earth to exert His power or force submission. He came to serve and to give His life a ransom for many. He did not come to condemn but to save. He came to reconcile each person back to God through His sacrificial death on the cross. He took our sin and our death in order to give us His righteousness and His life. HALLELUJAH! AMEN!

And I love how Paul ends this passage…This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven. This is not just a nice story for a particular people in a particular culture. This is the story of redemption for all mankind of all ages of all cultures. This is the story of history, the story in which all of us are a part. And the good news has been proclaimed to every creature under heaven. Commentators disagree on how to interpret this. Most believe that Paul is either exaggerating to some extent or saying that the gospel has reached every representative person in the known world at that time. I take it at face value. Yes, we are to take the gospel to every nation and every person but we must also remember that the Holy Spirit has already gone before us. We do not share the gospel with anyone who does not already have a sense of God’s existence (Romans 1:18-21), a sense of right and wrong (Romans 2:14-16), a sense of sin, righteousness, and judgment (John 16:5-11), and a light pointing to their need for a Savior (John 1:9). God has never left Himself without a witness (Acts 14:16-17). And we have the awesome privilege of partnering with God as His ambassadors and His ministers of reconciliation in His great redemptive story (2 Corinthians 5:16-21).

Lord, thank You for Jesus Christ. Thank You for reconciliation and forgiveness. Thank You for the privilege of being a representative of Your grace. May I shine Your light and share Your love with someone today.

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Colossians 1:9-14

9For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. 10And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully 12giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. 13For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

I love Paul’s prayers. He doesn’t pray the typical generic “bless them, be with them, give them good health” kind of prayers. His prayers touch on the weightier matters of faith…and teach us a lot about what matters.

His first prayer request for the Colossians…Lord, fill them with the knowledge of Your will so that they will have wisdom and understanding in knowing how to live. Quite a request. Something I long for myself. I need a sense of God’s will. I want to be in step with His plan. I want to know how to use my gifts for His glory, how to navigate the tricky waters between mercy and enabling someone’s sin, generosity and wise stewardship, serving and stretching myself thin, being a citizen of heaven and a politically aware and active American on earth. Lord, fill me with Your wisdom!

Paul prays for this filling of wisdom and understanding so that the Colossians will live a life worthy of the Lord and may please Him in every way. The goal is to bring pleasure to God, to make my life an offering to Him. It is interesting to look at the elements of my life that please the Lord. Check out this list…

1. Bearing fruit in every good work. Doing good to others. Shining the light of Jesus Christ so that others will have reason to glorify God (Matthew 5:16).

2. Growing in the knowledge of God. Not just cognitive, facts-based head knowledge…though we do have to know about God in order to know Him…but an experiential, intimate, increasing love of God.

3. Being strengthened with all power so that we can endure and persevere through life’s struggles. Life is a marathon and God wants us to keep running the race faithfully even through the bumps and potholes of life. That is why we need a fresh infusion of His strength each day.

4. Giving thanks to God for His salvation and blessings. Gratitude. Joy. Praise. Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18). In Christ, I always have a reason to give thanks…if I choose to focus on Him. A grumbling, complaining Christian is simply out of God’s will and looking at the wrong things.

Lord, may my life please You and bear fruit for Your kingdom.

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Colossians 1:1-8

1Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God, and Timothy our brother, 2To the holy and faithful brothers in Christ at Colosse:

Grace and peace to you from God our Father.

3We always thank God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, when we pray for you, 4because we have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love you have for all the saints— 5the faith and love that spring from the hope that is stored up for you in heaven and that you have already heard about in the word of truth, the gospel 6that has come to you. All over the world this gospel is bearing fruit and growing, just as it has been doing among you since the day you heard it and understood God’s grace in all its truth. 7You learned it from Epaphras, our dear fellow servant, who is a faithful minister of Christ on our behalf, 8and who also told us of your love in the Spirit.

Today begins our reading of Paul’s letter to the Colossians. This was another letter written by Paul while he was in prison in Rome. From what we know, Paul had never visited the small town of Colossae. The church there was started by Epaphras, who may have been a convert of Paul’s. Paul wrote the letter to combat false teaching that had already begun to infiltrate the Colossian church.

…We have heard of your faith in Christ Jesus and of the love you have for all the saints…

Paul had never been to Colossae. He had never met the believers there. But he was thankful to God that he heard about two main things in the lives of the Colossian believers–faith in Christ Jesus and love for all the saints.

These two things–faith and love–go hand-in-hand. They are the core of the Christian life. I must trust in Jesus Christ as my personal Savior. I must embrace Him, rely on Him, boast in Him alone. And the evidence and outpouring of that faith in Christ is my love for all the saints. That word “all” really stands out. I can’t pick and choose. Just as in a physical family, my brothers and sisters are my brothers and sisters whether I agree with them, like them, enjoy them or not. Faith in Christ teaches me to love His people. Indeed, that really is the only way I can love them. Faith is what opens me up to the power of the Spirit and the flow of Christ’s love. As the Spirit fills me, His love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control then manifest themselves in my relationships with others. If I have no love…or if I only love those whom I enjoy being around anyway…then the reality of my faith in Christ Jesus is non-existent or weak at best.

Faith in Christ…love for all the saints…springing from the hope we have in heaven…and the truth that we have in the gospel of grace. That about sums up the heart of Christianity.

Lord, strengthen my faith and give me a greater love for your people.

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